My Blood Go Upstairs

I have very distinct physical signs when I’m stressed. One, my insomnia gets even worse… and two, my face breaks out like a young boy who just entered puberty.

I have been sleeping relatively well… any lack of sleep nowadays is really due to the fact that I’ve been very busy… What can I say, I’m popular… (I was going to say something corny like “everybody wants a piece of the Syam-ster”... but I have my standards when writing…)

My face however is a different story… ok, the condition isn’t that bad… it’s just the one zit… but it’s still annoying…

See, here’s the problem… I’m breaking out because I’m stressed… I know that because I’m definitely antsy… But I don’t know why I’m stressed! I’ve been trying to figure it out for the past week. I haven’t been writing for the past week because my mind’s occupied with trying to figure out why I’m stressed. Does this make sense to you?

Let’s go over what may be stressing me out…

First of all, I’m back in KL, and I don’t think I’ve been happier in the past 2 years… things are definitely different from the way I left it, but definitely different in a good way…

Second, I examined my work life… I’ve been getting more responsibilities at work, but I look at that as compliment from my boss. I’ve always felt that when your boss gives you more work and responsibilities, it’s his/her way of saying that ‘your work is excellent and you are trustworthy, so I entrust this new responsibility on you’. So, I would say that my career is on great path…

Personal life… well, who are we kidding… who wouldn’t love me? I do feel like I’m surrounded by people who love and care for me… I don’t feel anybody is hurting me in any way… I may get a bit stressed trying to slot everybody in… as they say, ‘everybody wants a piece of the Syam-ster’… (yeah, there’s no real quality to this writing)…

So what’s bugging me? My friends have suggested that I’m getting stressed out because I have no idea what’s stressing me out. With my slight OCD, that is just possible…

Relieving stress is not something I’m really good at. I’m the type that keeps things bottled up (though this time, I have no idea what’s in the bottle). I get all sorts of advice from people on how to relieve the pressure… they range from the obvious “turn to God”, to the absolutely insane “drop everything and move to a different country”… to tell you the truth, the latter seems to be a very interesting idea… but I’ll just get stressed with the planning…

Maybe I should just look at the great things happening in my life nowadays… I should be thankful for all that has gone right for me… those things would definitely dwarf all those things that are stressing me out, even the imaginary ones.